None of this scares me.
But what happens when you find those unfamiliar stanger pieces that you can never relate to, in your own heart?
"I keep up with the trend; I've got the guts to try everything that comes my way, and I'm proud of that."
"I stick to my own style, irrespective of the changing times, and I'm proud of that."
"I don't give a shit about style and that's my style. I'm proud of that."
"I'm so smart, I'm an all rounder and I got into medical school, and I'm proud of that."
"I'm as dumb as a doorknob, and yet I worked hard and made it into medical school, and I'm proud of that."
You can take pride in just about anything. Maybe all that matters is just how much you want to be proud, because apparently you can be proud of anything; even just being brave in the face of failure. People are even proud of being proud in spite of nothing to take pride in- that's an achievement. And I've got to say, it's probably the hardest one of them all.
How many times can you get away with wishing for a duster to clean your dirty slate?
How many pages are you allowed to turn before you actually manage to keep one of them neat all the way through?
It isn't enough if you just learn from your mistakes and tell people that you have no regrets. At the end of your life, all you'd have made are mistakes, and excuses to justify those mistakes. And you'd have lost everything that meant even a little bit to you, to each mistake on the way.
A life with that kind of an end doesn't isn't a beautiful journey; those mistakes aren't experiences. They're just bullshit.