Sometimes I wonder why I want someone there with me ever time I'm crying. Why that irresistable urge to pick up my phone and tell the first person I can that I'm in desperate need of company. Why I feel like nobody cares about me now.
You've gotten me SO used to having someone there for me, perpetually, unconditionally. You've pampered and spoilt me so much that I'm finding it hard to live without someone to lean back on when I need. I can't do without a shoulder to cry on.
I wish you weren't that nice to me, because no one else ever is. There was no need to wonder what would happen if sometimes, you weren't around. But now, that isn't 'sometimes' anymore, it's always. And I hadn't noticed that as long as you were my only world. I wish you were like all the others; rough and mean and uncaring. I wish you'd ignored me when I was upset. Wish you'd never pestered me to tell you what's wrong whenever I sounded low. I wish you'd left me to fend for myself. Atleast the experience would help, now.
You've gotten me SO used to having someone there for me, perpetually, unconditionally. You've pampered and spoilt me so much that I'm finding it hard to live without someone to lean back on when I need. I can't do without a shoulder to cry on.
I wish you weren't that nice to me, because no one else ever is. There was no need to wonder what would happen if sometimes, you weren't around. But now, that isn't 'sometimes' anymore, it's always. And I hadn't noticed that as long as you were my only world. I wish you were like all the others; rough and mean and uncaring. I wish you'd ignored me when I was upset. Wish you'd never pestered me to tell you what's wrong whenever I sounded low. I wish you'd left me to fend for myself. Atleast the experience would help, now.
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