I know that 'what would have happened' is one of the most witless questions to ask yourself, because you're never going to get an answer to it. But sometimes I can't help it. What if I could live in the present, the way you're always told to? What if I didn't think as much about what's already over? What if I never had to regret anything I did? What if I could look back and smile about what happened? What if it didn't take me so much convincing to believe that it doesn't matter anymore? What if life was more constant? What if I was a girl who goes to bed early, wakes up early and eats everything that's placed in front of her? What if I didn't have to make a choice? What if it was already made for me? What if I had always been the same? What if there was nothing to change? What if I didn't care? What if I didn't even know there was something to care about? One of the most beautiful things is to be able to smile before you fall asleep at night. But what if I didn't know that? What if I didn't know that there were two ways? If I was unaware that I was missing something? Would that be better or worse?